Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Birthday Woes/Me Me Me

So not only am I a bad blogger-- today I am feeling like a bad mother (and wife but more on that later). Tomorrow is Liam's birthday and I have nothing planned. He has been talking about a party for months (we tried to talk him into laser tag at blazer laser but he insists on a party) and I have no idea what it's going to look like or how to get a few of his friends here, since it's a little late for invitations, or even if I can handle a party. I know Brad will help but it's been a rough week for him ( this is the wife part). He's pretty much been dealing with the kids, and housework since my mom left and has surpassed his level of patience. I feel horrible not being able to do more to help him and completely frustrated and annoyed with this stupid body. Not only that I'm just tired of being me; tired of talking about me (and that sounds bad because i know people are asking out of genuine concern so we can add guilt to the list of bad feelings); and I'm annoyed that I can't seem to take the focus off me and onto God and what He is doing. and frustrated that I can't see it. That's it. I'm done. If I keep going it's going to keep being about my frustrations and me.

3 comments:

Charlotte Coffee said...

Hey Mom...we got your back! This is a sweet way for us to love on you! I'ma plannin' a party!

Jen said...

char's right...you just sit back and enjoy friend.

Andrea said...

I love you friend! I just want to send big blog hugs your way!!
P.S. You are an amazing friend, wife, and mother. We love you!